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MY DREAM CAME TRUE...

After a very long time, I am really happy. I have a good news and a bad news. Well, the good news is that, I got my canadian visa and study permit and the bad news is that I can't go until January. As I wrote earlier, the classes have already started and since my study permit was approved late, I lost the seat and I had to apply for a deferment to the program for January 2018. I am not really sad about that though. I am happy about the fact that I got my visa and never in my dreams did I think that I would be getting such an opportunity to go abroad and study. It was always my dream since high school. If I get to go soon, that's two down from my bucket list- getting a degree and living abroad. :D

There is a reason why I chose to go abroad. Firstly, I want to be independent and strong and I want to live my life on my own terms. Secondly I want to save up and travel. Living in India didn't help me much. I blame myself for my current situation and no one else. And recently, I’ve been confronted with a scary reality; I may not be a “marriage material”. I love companionship, but I don't seem to be lucky enough to have a stable relationship. I’ve also come to realize how happy I am when I’m single not that I don't want a partner my whole life. Life wasn't looking really good when I got married and things were pretty messed up. I realized that I wasn't happy and that I wanted to run away from everything. I had my reasons and this post wouldn't be enough to explain every single thing in detail. So I got separated (not legally) and I started to get better with the support from my parents. I never thought they would stand by me when things got rough, because this wedding was my choice and nobody in my family was happy with my decision. 5 months into my marriage, I realized that I made a huge mistake and to be honest my future seemed bleak. I had to stop torturing myself and I wanted to let go of this relationship that was literally sucking out my mind and soul. So yeah, now here I am staying with my parents trying to figure out what I want in life. Canada is my dream come true and I consider this a blessing and I am not going to take it for granted. My parents have been a huge support and without them nothing would have been possible. This maybe a chance for me to turn things around and I want to make sure that I don't regret my choices anymore in the coming years. 

My CPA dreams have come to an end. But life isn't over and I am looking forward to seeing what the future holds for me. I don't want to spend the rest of my life thinking about all the bad decisions I have made and how these decisions ruined my life. From childhood we are expected to go to school, work, get married, and have kids, but where and when does society’s handbook lay out time for pursuing your own passions and adventures in life?

Life is too short to be anything but happy which is why I want to spend the rest of my life figuring out who I am and what I want to do with my life. It takes some people a lifetime before they realize that life is short. For most people life is about being successful or having a great career, or raising a family but I happend to come to a realization that I don't fit in any of these categories which is why I want to find out what I want and what is my purpose and what would make me really happy if I am given a choice. I guess only the time will tell.....


"Life doesn’t truly begin until you’ve broken out from your comfort zone, and having the courage to break free from routine is the only way you will find the adventure in you." - UnknownHow to be happy.Will traveling full time make me happy?

Much love,
Athi Unni 💓

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